Belly Flop

Here I am, in need of an outlet. A place to vent. A place to reflect. So here I am!

 This is a lesson plan I created/found yesterday.

I was really excited for it and I thought I had got everything ready. But when I taught it, everything went wrong. 

The lesson was too hard for my student, I had too many words on the board. I went to fast. I didn't explain it properly. I could feel half way through that this was going right over her head. 

I am very discouraged at how badly it went. 

I know I can learn from my mistakes, I know that I will do better next time. This is a learning experience. But every other lesson plan I have ever done in a classroom, has gone successfully. This is the first one that has belly flopped.

Now I am feeling all of my inadequacies as a teacher, how much I don't know. 

Which brings up another point. I need to spend more time on my studies so I can learn all of the things I need to know, but I don't seem to have time. I have so much to do. 

I am glad that I got to learn how failing miserably feels. It has humbled me quite a bit. Now I know, and now I can work back up to feeling comfortable.